Friday 26 October 2012

Dismantling the Past

Here’s the china tea set bought many years ago
From that antique shop on the green – now swathed
In bubble-wrap and placed in a cardboard box along
With other porcelain memories.
The Paddington Bear I bought for mum
From my first wage packet ,resplendent in his red wellies.
Embroidered cushions fashioned by an aunt as a present one year,
Sit on chairs soon to leave these rooms of reminiscences.
Of birthdays and Christmases gone by; Easters with their bonnet parades,
Simnel cakes and happy family laughter.
The birth of children, our wedding day and my mothers last journey,
Fastened into containers for life anew elsewhere.
Open a draw or cupboard and small treasures emerge into the light,
Worthless to others maybe – to me priceless, for everything here
Tells a story; has been on a passage through time and played its part
In the history of this house, this home, my family.
Old photographs and ancestral  records in biscuit tins perch
On top of bags, decorations, holiday souvenirs and an old iron.
Bottles of whisky for gifts (my father doesn’t like the stuff)
Sit under the hanging remnants of my mothers clothes
Destined, like the others, for the charity shop.
The task takes for ever as each piece is lovingly handled.
The old, the broken, the chipped are discarded or kept
Sorted and wrapped and labelled or binned.
Seventy odd years of worldly goods divided into three piles;
My fathers, mine and the unrequired.
So easy then to dismantle the past?
My heart says not.

©JEFT 2007

Thursday 25 October 2012

Being Eleven


You’re moving on - another hurdle passed, and as you grow
Life is teaching you so many things it can be hard to know.
Leaving behind childhood, its games and toys
Learning about bras, emotions  - and especially boys!

The latter can be difficult and turbulent , but then
They too are growing and learning what and when
And if and how they should behave and to whom –
Do they go red and silly when you enter a room
Or do they lash out and kick you because they feel a fool
And besides, it looks more cool!

The male of the species is totally different – and how!
They would rather strut their egos than allow
You to see what is under the façade, but when they get older
They do catch up with us and become a little bolder
Realising that in fact it is okay to act more real
And display to you how they really feel.   

It just takes them longer to mature emotionally, and it might be true
That there are some of them that never actually do
Catch up with us – a lesson you will have to learn my sweet.
Some cannot even be honest with themselves and cheat
And lie, deceive and do a whole lot more
To cover the fact that they are emotionally flawed.

You are blossoming into a young woman who
Is bright and bold, and whether you are aware, beautiful too.
One day, the males of this world will run a mile -
Not to get away from you, but to see you smile
Or even look their way, if you have a mind to ,
Save you a seat on the bus and watch everything you do.
Just be your special self, and as you grow, take care
Of your appearance, your clothes, your smile, your hair
And all that nature has bestowed on you, and in a year or two
The boys around here will be forming a queue!

Remember , choose friends who are there for you in good times and bad
And discard the ones who hurt you and make you sad.
The truth is my darling, life lessons can be hard for us all
Sometimes we are floating, and sometimes we fall.
But one thing I can assure you, about all the above
Is one day you will find your one true love.
And when you do you will be in seventh heaven
Forgetting all the trials of being eleven.
©JEFT 2001

Wednesday 24 October 2012

Body and Soul


Would that you could look inside of me
With your X-ray vision and scalpel sharp thoughts.
But they do not see beyond the flesh and bone
Blood-laced tissue and tiny cells.
Cannot comprehend the complexity of what lies
Within the labyrinth, behind the eyes
That watch you and try to understand.
Flesh-fastened, I exist for the moment
In this world, apprentice to the next for a term
Unknown.
Until then, all remains hidden, cocooned
Behind this poor façade so weak and vulnerable.
Cultivating and growing, awaiting the harvest
To come.
©JEFT 1987

Tuesday 23 October 2012

Daughter



My green eyed child with golden curls,
Frail palest fair and pure in youthful innocence.
Little, littlest girl, whose tiny trusting hand
Enclasped by mine, has vision still of a world
Of unstained brilliance and unbounded serendipity.

Sweetest bud, fragile seedling transplanted from
My womb into the cold uncertainty of Earth’s nursery.
Weather well the seasons and grow like the ethereal
Birch that ever seeks the celestial radiance and
Catches upon the wind the gossamers of creation.
©JEFT 1991

Monday 22 October 2012

Unsuspecting Fish


He is not in love
Or so he says
Yet hangs on to the hook
Instead of wriggling free.
Ebbing and flowing like the waves on the shore
He comes and goes
Emotions in full flood or
Swimming out on the horizon, brooding and watchful.
Allowing me to paddle in the waters of his life
But not immerse myself
Unless I should discover secrets in the hidden depths
Below the rippling surface calm.
Unsuspecting fish!
Caught in a rock pool
Crystal clear.
©JEFT 1989

Saturday 20 October 2012

Word Play


He exploded into her life without warning.
An exclamation mark of a man who came and went
in a flurry of words that meant little to her, but
which she analyzed – endlessly.
Mouthing phrases that had rested briefly on his lips
before he had gone, leaving them sailing through the air
to be entangled in the web of her restless mind.
Hanging on with  threads of uncertainty that one day,
they might reveal to her what lay behind
the question mark in his eyes.
©JEFT 1996

The Injustice


Hot tears stream down crimson
Cheeks from red-raging eyes and drip
Onto the grey tiled floor where small
Feet stamp a tarantella of frustration
In time to a howling rhythm.
White-boned hands clenched tight,
Shake against her taut  unbending frame,
Wracked by the injustice.
Dispassionate eyes stare and judge silently
Above bemused nods and tactful whispers.
She does not see. She does not hear.
Nothing penetrates but the cause of her passion,
Caught up in a maelstrom of confusion and clarity.
The frenzy fades, the blackness lifts and sensing
A cause lost, reluctantly the elfin malcontent
Concedes defeat, and succumbs to the consolation
Of her mothers arms.

© JEFT 1992